so tomorrow's the really really big day. hah honestly tomorrow could be the end of the world for all i care about what happens after. i can't see beyond it. i dunno. twelve months is a really long time isn't? but with every day and week and month (well no one really counts the months) that's passed, tomorrow's just been getting closer and closer and closer without me really realizing it? and all of a sudden here it is! and the crazy thing is that i know it'll be over in a moment and just like that i'll finally be done with my life as an officer cadet and instead i'll be starting a new one as an officer. no more marching from point A to point B, no more having to knock-it-down (well maybe in the toilet ;D), no more regimentation and all the nonsense that comes with it like falling in fifteen minutes early and all that. instead there'll be all the worries and stresses of having to actually WORK and do paperwork and make sure no one gets killed and making sure I don't get killed and that all kinds of things go well and that i don't screw up someone else's life! hah crazy as it seems, somehow i have a feeling that before long i'll be looking back on my life as a cadet, conveniently forget all the awful things (as if my mind hasn't already blotted out everything too traumatic, which is basically everything) and imagine how wonderful it would be to be back there again. bleagh. please stab me in the forehead if i ever express any sentiments like that please. in truth though i suppose it hasn't been all bad (it's starting already!), at least i've had the chance to meet awesome people and INTERESTING experiences. hahahah. plus i get a nice, shiny sword. and a chocolate bar. here's to the future guys. ten months till ORD. let's do our best to serve our country (;

just two more days world. be happy for me please. (:

i think i might just cry.